Loyal readers and friends, tonight I am grateful for YOU! I accidentally posted something to this blog that was meant for my other blog…and I had to quickly trash it because my other blog is anonymous…
Anyhow….two of you reached out to me concerned that the post was deleted. “Are you ok?” one friend asked. Another said that she keeps up with my life by reading my blog. As a blog writer, sometimes we write for catharsis and forget that there are other people reading what we write. I was humbled and flattered by my friends!
Despite a hectic work schedule, I’m doing well. Thank YOU for asking, dear friends! You rock!
I did something really dumb today. I didn’t eat anything all day. Yep. First meal of the day was after 8pm. This means that I worked an entire day plus went to a doctor’s appointment with nothing in my stomach but two cups of coffee.
By the time I got home tonight – around 8pm before eating – I was a grumpy crybaby who was clearly hungry and very bitchy. It’s not a good idea to not eat all day. After I ate, I felt better. Full. Happy. Not as bitchy.
Most of you know that I used to have an eating disorder, so going a full day without food is not a good thing for anyone, but especially someone like me.
What is my takeaway? Eating food = less grumpy, less bitchy.
I have a 10:15am appointment tomorrow and I plan to eat BEFORE it! What a novel idea?
As I just said to my friend in email, “This is really happening!” Because of some consulting work I’ve been doing that put a few extra bucks in my pocket, I had some vacation money to spend on a fall trip to Europe. I’ve paid for my Mediterannean cruise, and now my plane tickets to Barcelona are booked! All paid in cash – no credit! No turning back now.
Yes, yes, I’ve been to Europe many times yet it’s still so incredibly special when a trip is booked. I like to do them in advance so I can pay for the flight, hotels, etc off over time and have plenty of time to savor the “before a vacation” joy and excitement! I’m especially proud to be paying off the trip in full via cash, which wasn’t always the case with past vacations. Debt-free vacations from now on!
The best part of this trip is that I will be spending several days in Italy. Florence, Rome, and Naples are all part of the itinerary. Italy is my happy place. I feel at home there – I lived in Rome in 1996 & it’s never left my heart.
Here, here to relishing the longing for the trip!
I had an epiphany tonight. I rarely take my work home with me anymore. Ok, I technically do since my personal and professional laptop are currently one, but I’m talking more metaphorically. I don’t leave the office anymore, carrying home suitcases of bad feelings, job dissatisfaction, anger, and hurt. Instead, I leave with my briefcase – full of promise – which I leave at the door when I get home from work. It doesn’t come upstairs with me unless I need to clean it out, but that’s only sporadic. It lives at the foot of my stairs, hanging on a hook, and waiting for a new day.
It feel good to have little to no baggage. I feel lighter – physically and spiritually – and it leaves more room in my mind for the good things in life, like family, friendships, and recreation.
On an average week, I have something after work about 3 nights out of 5 – meetings, dinner plans, work event, you name it. I love my event-free evenings. I got giddy earlier in the day today when I looked at my calendar and saw nothing scheduled after 5pm. I left the office before 5:30pm and headed to Trader Joes. I didn’t have to rush. I leisurely strolled the aisles and loaded up on my favorite items – roasted seaweed, raspberries, and challah rolls. I got home and caught up on the latest episode of Quantico. And now I’m writing & listening to my buddy Howard Stern.
Unscheduled life is good.
Had lunch with a dear friend today who has been in my life for years, but most recently, she was connected to my old job. You know what I realized tonight? The pain I felt from that experience has faded. It’s not so raw anymore. I’m in a good place – good, healthy job environment – with a supportive culture. I feel myself moving on & it is an incredible feeling of true healing. Thank you, friend, for helping me feel good today.
It’s Thursday, and Passover begins tomorrow evening. It’s our family tradition. My brother and I travel to my parent’s place in NJ, and we gather about 25 friends & family for our abbreviated seder.
I’m taking the train. I was planning on driving, but I was getting very drowsy on the road this week after working many hours, many days in preparation for our big gala at work (broke records, by the way!). So happy to have this option. I’m listening to music/podcasts, responding to work emails, and – most importantly – not worrying if I doze off.
Worth every penny.